Chapter 20 - Adam

I unlock our front door and we go inside. My head is still swirling with thoughts about what I had agreed to in the restaurant. What have I got myself into?

Kali has promised a sexy time for just over a day, but how will this be different from usual? What does me having to give her control mean?

Is she going to dominate me like a BDSM Mistress? I hope not, I’m really not into that.

And not ejaculating until the end of tomorrow night. Why was she so insistent on that? Isn’t the whole point of sex to orgasm at the end? Why does she want to deny me? And now that we are home … what is about to happen?

‘We have a few hours until bed’ Kali says. ‘With Tracey away we can watch that movie I’ve been waiting to see for ages. Can you set up the movie and get us both a drink? I’ll go get into something more comfortable.’

This isn’t exactly jumping into sex or domination. But I also want to see the movie - it’s difficult finding time to watch more grown up content when there is a six year old in the house. I get some drinks, find the disc, and set everything up ready to play the movie. I sit down in my favorite chair and wait for Kali.

Now what did Kali mean by 'something more comfortable'?

Kali walks into the living room and I’m disappointed to see that this isn’t the Hollywood cliché - she really is more comfortable - she is wearing a slightly too big t-shirt and some light tracksuit pants.

As she walks towards me her breasts bounce under her t-shirt - she isn’t wearing a bra!

Her not wearing a bra at home used to be common years ago, and seeing how different she looks now makes me realize how long it's been since I've seen her in the living room like this. Possibly well over a year!

She must have noticed me looking because she walks over and stands in front of me. Over her t-shirt she cups a breast in her hand and starts to tease a nipple with a finger. I can see her nipple get hard under the fabric.

‘You like?’ she asks.

‘I do’ I reply as I reach out a hand towards her to touch a breast. But before my hand reaches her she says ‘Not now. I want to watch the movie first. There’s plenty of time for fun later.’

She sits down on the couch and I start the movie. Kali encourages me to sit next to her.
 
 
This was one of the few movies that lived up to the hype. I’m pleased we got to watch it, but as soon it is over my thoughts fully return to the challenge. Now what?

‘Time for some fun’ says Kali. ‘But before we do, one last chance to pull out. Do you still accept my challenge to let me have control over our sensual and sexual activities until the end of tomorrow night, and to not ejaculate until then?’

At the worst if I don’t like what happens I only have to do this for a day, and she is promising some sex now ... ‘Yep. I’m in. How are we going to have fun?’

‘Great’ she replies with a smile. ‘To start I would like you to stand by the TV and fully undress.’ She is still sitting on the couch and so is well positioned to watch me walk over to the TV and start to undress. Seems that now I’m the entertainment.

It feels very strange undressing in the living room with Kali just watching me.

Once I am naked she says ‘Now come and stand a bit closer to me. Closer. Closer. That’s good.’

I shuffle forward until I’m standing just a few feet from her.

‘Now I would like you to play with yourself so that you get nice and hard.’

Undressing for Kali had felt so strange and different that I hadn’t even started to feel aroused. I put one hand down to touch my balls and the other starts to stroke and squeeze my very soft shaft.

Kali is smiling as she looks at my hands starting to play with myself. I start to get aroused, and as she watches I start to get hard.
 
It feels good touching myself and I shut my eyes to ignore the strange situation and let the pleasure of my hands do their work. I almost forget that I am being watched.

Kali is silent until I get fully erect. Then she says ‘Now move a little closer, and keep playing with yourself gently - just enough to keep yourself hard.’

I open my eyes and see that Kali is still sitting back comfortably on the couch. Seeing her still dressed makes me feel very naked. What now?

I’m in the perfect position for her to learn forward and for her to give me some oral sex. But it doesn’t look like she is going to move. She isn’t even reaching out to play with me with her hand.

Of course I have stood naked and aroused in front of a seated woman many times before. But this was always for just a few seconds before I moved closer and she gave me oral sex. Making me stand here without quickly moving on to some real sexual activity feels weird and different.

Then I realize that this is not just different for me - but different from anything I’ve ever seen on the internet. Given the abundance of every conceivable kink on the net that is saying something! There is BDSM porn where a dominant woman in a fetish outfit has a naked man in front of her. But usually he would be kneeling at her feet or similar. Standing in front of her feels more domestic than the BDSM cliché.

And Kali isn’t acting dominant, she has just quietly told me what she wants me to do. It's only because I have agreed to do what she says that has me doing this.

OK, she is in control, and having to just stand here and play with myself is making her control feel very real. However without her issuing forceful commands, and without the stern and uncaring look of the Femdom I see online, this doesn’t feel like domination.

And she certainly isn’t wearing fetish gear. I look down at her loose t-shirt and I notice that her nipples are hard and very visible under the light fabric. Hard nipples - she must be enjoying this!

This sign of her enjoyment has me stand up a bit taller and my erection feels a bit harder. It feels good that this is arousing her.

What we are doing isn’t like the CFNM I have seen on the net either. So much of that is about laughing at the naked male, humiliating him, and forcing him to cum.

Kali isn't humiliating me, and, oh shit, our game means that she won't have me cum tonight.

I thought I had seen it all on the net. How strange that Kali has come up with something that I've never seen before.

Kali asks me to move even closer, and I shuffle forward.

Then I notice the biggest difference from anything I’ve ever experienced or seen on the net - her expression.

Kali is looking at my erection without moving her head to look at anything else. Her eyes are open slightly wide, and her expression is like a happy young child who has just been given a toy that they have always wanted - happy relaxed innocence.

She asks me to turn a bit, and to play with myself more slowly. As she says this, and I obey, her eyes never leave my erection.

This still feels totally weird to me. Following perhaps years of her not showing much interest in me it feels wonderful to have her enjoying my arousal.

But is she just going to look? How long is she going to have me standing here? Sex is much more than just looking - so let’s get on with it!

But no action - Kali just continues to look at my erection with a happy gaze. As she looks at me - well part of me - I look down at her expression and a bit further down to admire her hard nipples.

‘Play with yourself a bit faster now’ she says, never looking up.

I increase my hand activity - boy this feels good. But her not looking up is starting to get to me. Hello. I’m up here too. How about looking up at me? Hello?

I clear my throat, which seems to catch her by surprise and she finally looks up at my face. The child-like innocent gaze has gone, but she now has a big normal smile.

‘Sorry’ she says. ‘I think I got carried away with admiring you. You do have a very nice erection you know.’

Now when was the last time she said that? This is different, but it’s not all bad.

‘Now,’ she says ‘time for bed. Can you turn everything off for the night and I’ll see you in there.’

Naked and aroused I’m keen to get to bed. She doesn’t move. So I grab the glasses and take them to the kitchen. It would be lovely to just leave them, but if I did she would be annoyed in the morning.

She watches me clear the glasses and she is still smiling as she continues to admire my arousal.

Finally she gets up and heads to the bathroom to get ready for bed.

Back from the kitchen I turn off the TV and lights in the living room, and clean my teeth. I’m too hard to go to the toilet, I'll have to do that later.
 
 
Kali has dimmed the bedroom lights and is already in bed.

I'm no longer fully hard, but I'm still hard enough that as as I walk towards the bed Kali once again smiles as she watches me.

I slip into bed with her.

‘Cuddle’ she says, and I move towards her as she moves towards me.

Mmm. Skin on skin - she is naked too. How long ago was it since she was last fully naked when in bed?

What little sex we have had recently was always pulling her bedclothes to the side. Having her naked in bed feels much nicer and much sexier. Her hand moves down to hold my erection and her touch quickly has me fully hard again. Having her hand touching me feels much more exciting than touching myself.

For about five minutes we quietly cuddle with her holding my erection. It feels great to have her holding it, but when are we going to properly do something? It feels unnatural to have to wait for her to start something, but I did agree to give her control. So come on - use your control and let’s do something!

‘Enter me gently’ she says as she rolls onto her back. Yippee. Action!

I move over her. I put my weight onto my elbows, and position myself. My erection finds the right spot and I push and slip in incredibly easily. This is different, I usually have to push harder, but then the reason for this becomes obvious - I can feel that she is very wet.

Now that I’m fully in I start to pump harder. This is it, real sex at last!

For about a minute I pump and then Kali says ‘Not so fast. I don’t want you to cum in a few minutes - we have all night ahead of us. So just slow and gentle.’

Oh fuck. She is right. I’m not going to cum in a few minutes. And, if I can meet the challenge of her game, I’m not going to cum until tomorrow night!

And now I’m not even allowed to fuck her properly.

I ease up and try to slow down. I guess it makes sense to go slow as it makes it easier not to cum by mistake. But being slow and gentle is missing the point of fucking. Where is the passion and energy if I can’t pump?

I once again notice how wet she is, and this excites me even more. It’s a challenge to restrain myself and not to start pumping again.

Though this slow and gentle sex is missing the passion of action, I feel much more energized than usual. Each little move is electric, and with me being so much stiller than usual I can feel her reacting. I can even feel her sometimes clenching my erection with her pussy. Her very wet pussy. I feel my energy increase even more and although I’m only moving gently in and out I start to feel close to cumming.

Kali must have sensed my increased arousal because she says ‘I want you to be still for a while.’

I stop moving in and out and we are both still. This is weird. It’s like pausing a sex video - all the energy of the act but nothing happening. I take the weight off my elbows and rest my weight onto Kali’s chest.

‘Lie on your back now,’ she says.

O shit. I realize my weight on Kali has made this position uncomfortable for her, and now she has ended our sex.

I put my weight back onto my elbows and start to slowly pump again ‘I’m sorry. Is this better?’

‘Yes it is better, but you said you would give me control, and I want you on your back’ she replies.

Reluctantly I pull out and lie on my back. I can feel that my erection is wet from her arousal.

I'm full of energy and desire and desperate for more attention. Is that it for tonight? Please don’t end things already.
 
 
Kali sits up in bed. She leans forward and grabs my hardness in one hand, then she leans forward further and puts it into her mouth.

‘Mmm. I can taste myself.’

Am I about to get a blow-job? Please. Please make this so! But she sits up and that possibility has gone.

Before I have time to feel disappointed she moves to climb on top of me. She lifts her bottom, takes hold of my erection with her hand, positions it, then slowly slides her body down on top of me.

Wow. This feels good. I thrust upwards but she tells me to be still. Reluctantly I comply and we are still as she sits with me deep inside her.

Her breasts look wonderful in the soft bedroom light - her nipples are hard and inviting.

She must have noticed me looking at them, as she then says ‘Play with my breasts.’ I eagerly comply.

As I play with her breasts she starts slowly moving up and down on my erection.

As her pace quickens I feel my arousal increasing and I’m moving close to that point after which it’s impossible to stop myself from ejaculating. But before I get there she stops moving and we are back to neither of us moving with me deep inside her.

‘I don’t want you cumming by accident,’ she says.

Once I've calmed down and regained control she starts to move again.

For maybe half an hour she rides me. Every time I get close to the point of no return she stops moving until I calm down. We have moments of her being very active, lots of her moving slowly, and lots of time when she just sits on me. There is so much energy and yet so little action.

I'm then surprised as she has a huge orgasm as she is actively riding me. Clearly her energy had been building all this time and it all came out.

She collapses to lie on top of me, with me still inside her.

I've still got all my energy, so I start to thrust.

'Stay still' she says. I force myself to do so.

It feels very strange to be so energized, to be inside her, and yet not move at all as she recovers from her powerful orgasm.

I'm throbbing inside her. And I can tell that she is very wet.
 
 
Eventually she has the energy to roll off me and she lies besides me.

‘Cuddle me’ she says, and I roll over to face her and take her in my arms for a cuddle. I move my hand down her back to gently hold her bottom.

My erection is still throbbing. After so long inside her it now feels neglected. Just as I’m starting to feel frustrated that she is ignoring my arousal she moves her hand down my front and takes my erection into her hand.

It feels incredibly good to have her holding me.

‘That’s all the activity for tonight I’m afraid’ she tells me. ‘But I’m not going to just roll over and go to sleep. I can feel you still need some attention.’ She gives my erection a squeeze. ‘So we are just going to quietly cuddle like this for a while.’

I want to cum! I want more activity! I thrust my erection into her hand.

‘Be still’ she says. 'This cuddle is to calm you down, not to excite you further.’

I thought she was going to make me do things, but it seems this game is more about her telling me to be still than anything else. So yet again I do as she asks and stop thrusting.

All I can think of is how stupid I was to agree to not ejaculate during sex. I want to cum. I need to cum. It’s fucking normal to cum.

Should I just give up on the challenge and insist that she make me cum and tell her that if she doesn’t help I’ll do it myself?

Or should I put up with this agony and prove I can meet her stupid challenge?

She did promise that if I didn’t like what happened during the challenge - like it, this is torture - that she would never ask me to do it again.

OK. I'll meet her challenge and then I’ll never have to do it again. I resign myself to my fate that tonight - this night only - I would let her deny me an ejaculation.

Accepting to myself that I won't get relief tonight has the cuddle start to feel very different. Her hand gently holding my erection feels good, and this cuddle has an energy that I have never felt before. I give another thrust into her hand.

‘Be calm.’

I stop my thrusting.

She is right. If I'm not going to cum I need to calm down, and thrusting only excites me more which will prolong the agony.
 
 
As we cuddle I think of what has happened this evening.

The playing with myself in the living room as she watched was weird. It's normal for a man to enjoy looking at a naked woman, but tonight she reversed this. I didn't think a woman would like this, but it sure did get her wet!

Taking so long with sex was peculiar as well, but boy did it have its moments.

If only Kali hadn’t insisted on me not being allowed to cum then tonight would have been so much better. At least she didn’t just roll over and go to sleep straight after sex - now that has a familiar ring to it. That's what women so often complain men do!

I wonder if women feel something like the need I have now for Kali to hold me? Maybe it is a bit similar, but it couldn’t be nearly as intense as my need for her to hold my erection.

Of course the reason I want her to hold my erection is that I didn't get to ejaculate. She had a wonderful orgasm tonight yet I got zilch. Now that seems unfair. This game seems to be about turning the tables. Maybe that is her point?

But as she seems to be enjoying it all so much maybe this is just about her fun and pleasure?

I really don't know why she wants this. Maybe I'll find out tomorrow.
 
 
After about twenty minutes of quietly cuddling my erection lost it's urge to cum. I am still fully hard, but calmer now.

Kali notices the change and finally moves her hand and stops holding me.

‘Time for sleep now,' she says. ‘I know that it will be difficult for you to get to sleep tonight. But if you are good I have a very special reward planned for you tomorrow morning.’

What does she mean by good? Probably that I don’t have a wank during the night. Reward. That sounds interesting!

Kali is right, with an erection that won’t go down it is difficult to get to sleep. I keep thinking about all that has happened tonight.

I'm still slightly hard when about half an hour later I finally get to sleep.