Chapter 29 - Sarah

The end of another long day. I’m exhausted.

I trudge up the stairs to our bedroom, I need to go to sleep. I strip off my clothing except my panties and climb into bed. Checking the alarm is set I start the wind down towards sleep.

Will comes bounding up the stairs shortly after me. He obviously has far more energy than I do. I like that we go to bed at the same time most nights enabling us to end the day with a cuddle.

I watch him as he gets ready for bed. He removes his underwear and I see his desire for me standing up. He gets into bed and slides towards me to start our cuddle.

My lovely husband is aroused and eager, but I'm tired, too tired for sex.
 
 
It’s times like this that I am really pleased we live Devotional Sex. My knight will not pressure me for any sexual activity no matter how aroused and eager he might be.

Being able to have Will do whatever I wish isn't felt most when I have him do something because he is always eager. Instead I feel the power he has given me is most powerful when he is really eager for activity but he accepts my wish for no more than a cuddle.
 
 
Will slides his hand down to my bottom and feels that I'm still wearing panties. Even before I say anything that lets him know that I'm not wanting to receive any pleasures tongiht.
 
 
When Will first told me about Devotional Sex he had said that he did not want to cum as often, that an erection showed his desire for me, but it was not a demand for sex, and that the decision of when sex happened was mine.

It took me a while to accept that, what Will said, he meant. I had always felt that if Will was erect when in bed with me that this was, well not a demand, but an expectation that sex would follow and I would relieve him of his energy.

But as we first explored Devotional Sex, slowly but surely Will, by his genuine acceptance of no activity despite being aroused, convinced me that he really meant what he said, and I no longer felt pressured for sex and so not only started to feel relaxed and comfortable with not doing anything, but started to enjoy him desiring me as part of our cuddle which went no further.
 
 
I lie in our bed, my knight snuggled in to me, his hand resting on my breast, his erection pressed between our bodies.

I marvel at just how lucky I am, the sensual touch of his hand that I love, the evident desire of my man and the fact that we could stay in this position for as long as I want, both celebrating the intimacy of this cuddle.

‘I love you so much’ I say.

‘I love you too. And I think you can feel how much I desire you.’

‘I certainly can. You seem really rather pleased to be cuddling me tonight.’

‘I am. I would love to give you a pleasure kiss’ Will says with a grin. ‘Or anything else my beautiful princess desires to do.’

‘I dare say you would. There are very few days you don’t’ I say, pointing out the obvious.

‘True. Can’t think of the last time I wasn’t desirous’ he muses.

‘I’m sorry, but I am really too tired for anything tonight. Just a cuddle tonight.’

I do want to please my knight, he is so considerate and tender, he needs his pleasure just as much as I do, but he will have to wait for now.

‘Nothing to be sorry for’ he reassures me. ‘I’m ready when you are. Do you want to go to sleep now?’

‘I do. Thank you my amazing, devoted knight. Sleep tight.’

‘You too princess. I’ll keep cuddling you as you fall asleep.’

After more than six years of Devotional Sex I know he will wait for me to make my decision, his erection a sign of his desire for me, not a demand for more.

I close my eyes ready to drift off. His hand an intimate contact, his desire erect and evidence of his love for me, his words calm and gentle.