Chapter 14 - Kali

Driving home from Sarah’s I wonder if Devotional Sex could work with me and Adam. It sounds like Sarah and Will have a very good time and it would be wonderful to have more romance in my relationship. But I can’t see Adam embracing it. I don’t suppose there’s any way I could persuade him.

‘Hi. Nice evening? Did Tracey go to sleep OK?’ I ask Adam when I enter the TV room.

‘She cried for a while, but I just left her to get on with it.’

‘Why...’ do you have to be such a crap dad I finish in my head. ‘...don’t I go and check on her.’ I say calming my anger. I leave him watching TV and go to check on Tracey.

As I walk back downstairs I decide that perhaps I should take the initiative, I like having sex with Adam. He might not be all that I want him to be, but he is mine and what Sarah has can be mine too, I hope. Let’s see if we can have a good time this evening.

‘Adam, shall we go to bed for an early night?’

He glances up at me wondering what I mean. I smile and blow him a kiss. He quickly cottons on to my intentions, turns off the TV and stands up.

We make our way up to our bedroom and once inside I catch him in an embrace and we kiss. His kissing is eager and passionate, I match his ardour. This is lovely, lots of talk about sex earlier and now some sensual kissing with my partner.

Adam's hands start to roam over my body. It’s nice that we’re enjoying this time together. He pulls my top free from my waistband. His hand slips under and I feel his hand on my naked back. It’s lovely to feel the warmth of his hand.

His hand slides up under my top and finds my bra. He starts to fumble around trying to unfasten it. He starts to squirm as he concentrates on on undressing me. We lose contact kissing.

‘Leave it alone.’ I say to him frustrated. ‘There’s no rush, we’ve got all night.’

He takes his hand away begrudgingly, chastised. I draw him back into a kiss but he lacks the same enthusiasm. I take his hand and place it back under my top at the small of my back.

‘I like your hand there, can you wait a bit to take my bra off please?’ Our kissing resumes properly and I enjoy it for a while.

I undo the front of his pants and pull his top off over his head, then resume our kissing before he can remove mine. I roam my hands over his back and he mimics my action.

Enjoying our kissing, I shuffle my hands down between our bodies and while keeping our lips connected finish undoing his pants. I push his pants down. I sense he wants to move things on. I lean away from him and take my top off and then quickly remove my jeans. His face brightens as he knows he’s going to get what he wants.

Adam strips off the last items of his clothing and gets into bed. I slip in next to him equally naked. I draw him back into an embrace and resume kissing. His hands go off exploring, he runs them through my hair and over my back and bottom.

He pushes his hand in between our chests to cup my breast. He waits a few moments then starts to pinch my nipple.

‘Ow’ I yell at him, louder than I should have done, but surprise and pain are not on my list of pleasurable sensual activities. ‘If you want this to end the way you hope it will you have to stop trying to get to the next bit so quickly.’

‘I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to turn you on, get you in the mood’ he replies.

‘I know. Just don’t be in such a rush. Enjoy kissing and cuddling me. Please.’

We pick up where we were. I try a different tack and roll him onto his back and follow him, so that I am lying on top of him. I think this will give me a bit more opportunity to set the pace.

Our kissing carries on and his hands explore my back. When I am ready I sit up and take him inside me. I ride him for a while. Adam looks like he is enjoying it as much as me.

As I ride Adam I start to build up towards an orgasm. But then Adam starts to thrust his hips. Despite being underneath he tries to pound into me.

I decide there is only so much I can do to slow things down in one night, so I give up and slip off him and onto my back. He follows immediately and thrusts into me. I try to enjoy his hard thrusting but feeling disappointed that he didn't give me a chance to orgasm while I was riding him.

Adam just wants to cum, his thrusting quickly reaches a crescendo, he sighs and collapses on top of me, his energy spent. A quick peck on the lips, rolls over to his side of the bed and within moments he's asleep.

I would love a cuddle. I lie there thinking about what just happened. I'm frustrated that I missed out on an orgasm, but I'm also pleased that this evening's chat with Sarah and Will had inspired me to try to take things slow with Adam. Most of tonight was much more loving than usual. For Adam the kissing and cuddling probably felt like forever, but I would have loved even more.

Maybe there is hope for us, just maybe it's worth trying some more.

And with that thought I fall asleep.