Chapter 24 - Kali

It had been a different weekend!

Friday Adam had accepted my challenge to be my knight until Saturday evening. Yesterday Tracey was home and life went back to normal, and today we both went to work.

Adam didn't speak about what had happened on Sunday or this morning. He doesn't find it easy to talk about his feelings, and as I didn't want to pressure him I didn't ask him how he feels. But waiting awhile gives him space to think. I’m sure he has been thinking about the challenge lots since if finished.

He doesn't say anything when we arrive home. But finally, once Tracey is in bed as we are sitting down watching some TV he breaks his silence and says that he really enjoyed it when I had given him a blow job on Saturday.

I’m glad he has found something positive about the experience.

‘Any chance of a repeat tonight?’ he asks hopefully.

‘You want to cum in my mouth this time?’ I ask.

Adam nods enthusiastically.

‘But I don’t enjoy you cumming in my mouth. So sucking you this way is all about you. What about my feelings?'

‘I ...’ Adam is crestfallen. ‘I could lick you if you want me to.’

'Somehow the you do me so I do you type of sex always has me feeling that I'm losing out. I enjoyed giving you oral sex on Saturday because there was no pressure - I could enjoy it as well as you. You seem to want me to be a porn star.’

Adam is lost for words. Perhaps he does want a porn star for a partner. But he hasn't got one, he has me.

‘The thing I really loved about Friday and Saturday was that we were together, you were far more attentive to me. I felt like you wanted to make love to me rather than to fuck me.’

‘But I have needs, I need to cum. I don’t want to be teased and left waiting’, replies Adam in a defensive tone.

‘We both have needs. You want sex and I want to be loved and to enjoy our sex. Was the waiting really that bad? Wasn't it worth it in the end?’

I’m not sure how he truly feels.

‘I don’t know. I love you. My orgasm was good but...’

He pauses and I let silence descend.

After a while he speaks again, ‘I guess each bit was good, even going shopping with you wasn’t too bad, especially seeing you without a bra on.’ He breaks into a grin. ‘I just don’t want to wait to cum, I want to cum when I feel the desire.’

‘OK.’ I chose to not judge what he says but just accept it at face value.

We don’t speak for a long time.

Adam suddenly says ‘I'm not a proper man, not being able to ejaculate.’

‘You think if you told your mates we’d had sex which lasted for 24 hours they’d be unimpressed?’ I keep my tone light and airy. Adam is opening up to me and the last thing I want to do is stop that from happening.

‘They’d laugh if I told them I couldn’t cum until you said so. I’d be called all sorts of names.’ Clearly this is a big deal to him.

‘Fair enough’ I say, ‘I enjoyed how we made love, how I could give you pleasure and you could give me pleasure. I said that if you didn’t enjoy it then I would never ask you to try my challenge again and I won’t. However if you want to do it again all you have to do is ask.’

‘Good!’ he says to bring the subject to a close and walks out of the living room.

Though he said this as if he would never do the challenge again, I get the feeling that all the sex and adventures of the challenge are still very much on his mind. I think, well at least hope, that all the good bits start to outweigh his resistance and he will try this again.

I wonder when I should tell him that 'the challenge' isn't something I made up, but has a name - Devotional Sex - and that there are lots of other couples who practice this?

Maybe it will make it easier for him to try it again if he knows he isn't the only one facing the challenge and being rewarded for doing so.

Anyway, that will be a discussion for another day.